You told me you liked my dress and that made me feel special, but it solidified the realization that I will never know what it's like to have you leave so fast that I can still feel your lips on mine.
When I woke up I remembered it's the 14th. It's been a year without a friend and a year with an angel.
I'm sick of being the sponge. The sponge that always has to soak up everyone's problems and worries. It's exhausting.
I can't stop thinking about where I am supposed to be and it's definitely not here.
I have a lot of anxiety and I get stressed out over the Littlest things. So I apologize if I ever get caught up in uptight energy.
I'm trying not to jump to conclusions about you, because you keep proving me wrong.
My heart is tired. I can feel it.
Lola.
Why am I getting teary..oh. Cuz everything.
ReplyDelete"It's been a year without a friend and a year with an angel." Are you kidding...perfect.
"I'm trying not to jump to conclusions about you, because you keep proving me wrong." Ooohhhhh...
But
"My heart is tired of beating. I can tell."
That touched my heart too...I wish I didn't relate. But my dear, you just put things so simply but also beautifully and it just makes sense to my soul. Love you. And I'm sorry for all of your hard things.