Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Guess what? I'm not a robot.

I am human.
I get nostalgic on long drives through the canyon. Everything is so simple, yet beautiful. The drives remind me of simpler times,
When the biggest thing I had to worry about was if I had a skin colored crayon or not, and what new toy I wanted for my birthday.
When I felt bad for eating broccoli, because they were little trees.
When my biggest joy was when I got a 10/10 on my spelling test, or when I moved up a reading level.
When I thought my world was ending when I fell off my bike and scrapped my knee.
I am human because I can remember.

Now I just try to survive everyday. I wake up, go to school, go to work, come home, do my homework, sleep. Repeat. I feel like I am on a constant loop. I feel like a robot some days, just going through the motions of daily life. I HATE that. I want to feel.
I NEED to feel, because I am human.

I am human.
I feel it. I just know.
I know because I am alive. I have a heart that beats. A heart that loves so deeply, sometimes it hurts. I have a brain that thinks. Sometimes I forget to use it. I makes mistakes. I am not perfect and I know that.
I am trying though. I want to be better. I want to be the best me I can be.

Simply,
I am human.

Lola.

2 comments:

  1. Love. I can relate to you on the broccoli line. Lol. I think this expresses what a lot of us wanted to say, but couldn't find the words. Poetic, and the poetic I could understand.
    Good, good, good.

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  2. I liked this post.

    You feel like a robot sometimes, but you know you're human because you WANT to feel. I like that.

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